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| Sunday, August 25th, 2002 | |
| 11:08 am | internet mishap I signed a guestbook last night and I put in the webpage part, THIS address. I dont' know WHY. Oh, wait... I DO know why. Bcause I'm TRYING to build a website! (www.freewebs.com/falseemovix) But, the site I'm using to build it at is constantly NOT working! Argh! I got a weird comment today. From someone anonymous on my DJ. It was a comment on an entry from February! IT was kind of mean, and I understand that my ENTRY sounded kind of mean, but why is someone commenting on my entries from February anyway?? I'm different from what I was in February. then, I was tired and cranky, and stressed from the musical and school. Now, I'm calm and relaxed and I know that what I write does affect people in some way. It's just not cool to bring up an old entry and shove it in my face pointing out the mistakes that I made in the PAST. Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: Map of June |
| 12:13 am | again mmm, charley. It's nice when a guy plays in two bands. Just more time to oogle. mmmmm. Great things come in small pacakages. hee hee. Current Mood: still chipper Current Music: Time To Fly... still. |
| 12:03 am | doo bee doo bee doo, doo doo bee dee dah I went to the hOle again today. I went to that instead of going to the drive in and a sleep over with the rainbow girls. I'm sorry, but I just fele like I needed some me time. So I got some, with my friends. Even though I kept losing Emily and Brittany all over the place, it was still really fun. The lineup was: * Autumn hates winter * Map of June (WOOO HOOOO!!!!!!) * Emery * Time To Fly This was my first time seeing all bands except MOJ. I bought a time to fly CD and a MOJ CD and i also got a time to fly sticker. (Along with the free one. I put them on my guitar case.) I've been working on playing my guitar more and more. I'm jsut a simple beginner so right now, I'm trying to master the hannukah song. A E D E, A E D E. That's how it goes. There were some hot guys at the concert tonight. I got a ride home from my home dawg Kelsey. I was REALLY quiet on the way home. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I don't really know Carter and Pat (The guys in the backseat). I should just have gotten to knwo them better rather than be all quiet and crap. Ah well. Hakuna matata or something like that. Current Mood:  chipperCurrent Music: Time To Fly |
| Saturday, August 24th, 2002 | |
| 12:51 am | mmm I went to the hOle today. the line up got messed up from word of mout o what it really was to what it became. At first, I hear it was at least EWI and Brodie, so I was pumped for EWI but then I talked to Brandin (REally Brandon) yesterday and he said that their lead singer was out of town so they couldnt'. Stupid Rugan! Anywhoo, so, then I knew it was at least Brodie. That changed when we got to the door, it turned into Magnetic North. I hadn't actually heard any of these bands before, but I'm glad that I went tonight. I got a Magnetic North CD and t-shirt. There was supposed to be a 20 song compillation CD with it, but the girl before me got it. Really, she wasn't before me... she was behind me, but they forgot to give me mine... so basically, she has mine! Grrrrrr! But yah. Then, outside, Kayla was chattin it up with the second guitarist from MN (Charlie) and just chillin. Apparently, he dropped out of high school and he knows that smoking is bad for you, but he still does it. Bad Charlie. Charlie is really short, and he also plays with MOJ, so I look foreward to seeing them tomorrow! (Well, today.) mmm, Charlie. Niiice. Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: Magnetic North |
| Friday, August 16th, 2002 | |
| 4:04 pm | dammit I just got back from the ensemble campout, and we all had to write these little index cards to one another. Well, a common theme in mine is that I am very shy and quiet. And one of them was that I took jokes too literally. Do I? I never really thought so. I mean... yah. So now I'm like, bawling because I'm pissed at myself because I've become more introverted over the summer. I think it's because I haven't been around many people this summer. I mean, after driver's ed, I've just been staying at home. I loved the campout, and I loved that people at least noticed these things in me, and I'm not crying BECAUSE they pointed them out. I would be crying anyways. I mean, I wanted the campout to last longer, it was SO fun. I'm not sad because they pointed out what's true, I'm pissed at myself because it IS true. I just hope that when the school year rolls around again, I can become more outgoing... again. Can you guys please help me do so? somehow. I just... I've spent so much of my life being introverted and scared, I don't want to be that anymore. I want to be outgoing! I'm, too damned polite. I mean, I grew up with people yelling at me for interrupting. I was "trained" on the thought that you can't talk until 2 seconds have gone by since the last person to talk was done. I'm SICK of that! I'm sick of not being heard! I'm sick of not letting myself be heard! From now on I'm going to pipe up! I don't care if what I say is stupid! I am going to be less self concious about what people think (or may think) of me! I am sick of it! I am sick of being so timid and scared! I don't want this anymore! Also, I think it would be beneifcial if I got a car. seriously, then I can go more places, and not have to depend on people for a ride. I hate having to depend on people for a ride. I need a fucking car! I don't see why my mom can't understand. But, since I have AM swim, I think my mom may think more seriously about getting me one. She was talking to Tom when she saw him at the grocery store, and he told her that his parents didn't want to get HIM a car either until he had AM swim. I really need a car! I am oging to have AM swim, and rehearsals, and eventually, there will be the children's play, and we have to use our own cars... arrgh! I NEED A DAMNED CAR!!!!!!!! And to add on to the top of all of this, I have a bad sunburn and it hurts bad. This isnt' really great when I'm trying to stop crying. Wow, venting feels good. Current Mood:  distressedCurrent Music: Dashboard Confessional |
| Sunday, August 4th, 2002 | |
| 10:59 pm | ehh, err? Do I like him? nah... he's... him! But..? no. no. maybe? Current Mood:  thoughtfulCurrent Music: Some broadway thing on channel 9 |
| 8:52 pm | rrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh AAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!!!!!!!! Ok, I just got back from diner and my mom said that maybe she HADN'T sent in the check! Now I don't know if I am pissed because she didn't send it in, sad because I don't know what to do, or happy because if I DO go then I cna show off my pretty new dress!!!!!!! RRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Current Mood:  pissed offCurrent Music: nothing... again |
| 8:19 pm | *tear* shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit ok... Last year I was in this pageant thing. yah, well, I was going to do it again this year, and I had half of my sponsor fees in ($150) and then my mom said that she ouwld pay the other half. Yah,I got a couple letters in the next couple of months that the other half hadn't gotten there. So, I just sort of gave up. I thought that my mom just hadn't paid it. that she had forgotten or something. So, without knowing that she HAD I gave up and so I didn't do any extra contests or do any advertising. Without doing these tings, all I get is a measly little consolation prize. I don't want that again. I had that last year and I decided that I wanted more this year. shit shit shit. About ten minutes ago, my mom asked me if I was still going to do the pageant. She told me that she HAD sent in the check. Now I'm crying because I don't know if I should do it or not. I mean, I want to do it so that I don't waste people's money. I mean, $300 is a lot. but then, I also don't just want to get ONE trophy... but it s too late to get any others. I am so torn! I don't know what to do!!! I also feel like crap for having doubted my mom. This realyl hurts. shit shit shit shit shit shit Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: Nothing... just, nothing |
| 1:05 am | aaaaaaahh!!! Aliens!!!!! I saw "Signs" today. It was pretty creepy. The CGI was ok, but the most effective part was the build of suspense throughout the whole movie. I suggest everyone sees it. I went with Derek and Tom and like, 3 of their other friends. I thin kTom hates me. Everytime I see him, or say "Hi Tom!" he looksa ta me like, "Why the hell are YOU here?!" I dunno. Maybe it's just me. Maybe he's bitter cause he got hosed. I didn't hose him. Oh, well. I'm already getting stressed about my installation. It's not until September 21st! I still have a month and a half! I already got my dress. It's pretty cool. I can't say anything about it because it's top seret. I just hope that Breezy doesn't say anything about it either. I need some decorations that go along with the theme of "all the world is a stage". All I can find is movie decorations... I don't need movies, I need theatre!!!!! She got mad at him. He's not leading her on. She's making these thing up in her head. She needs to go back to reality. Get a grasp on everything that is real. Current Mood:  blankCurrent Music: Weezer |
| Thursday, August 1st, 2002 | |
| 11:02 pm | grr He bailed on me! That bum! It wasn't so much I wanted to hang with him... I just wanted to see the movie!!!!! Fnyargh. Current Mood: distressedCurrent Music: Undressed |
| Wednesday, July 31st, 2002 | |
| 11:27 pm | I do... do I? Do I like him? No... nah, I don't. He's just... no. I don't. But I do. But I don't. AAAAAGH!!! Current Mood: confusedCurrent Music: undressed |
| 11:27 pm | I do... do I? Do I like him? No... nah, I don't. He's just... no. I don't. But I do. But I don't. AAAAAGH!!! Current Mood: aggravatedCurrent Music: undressed |
| Tuesday, July 30th, 2002 | |
| 10:45 pm | Agent I am so happy! My mom said she won't search for one FOR me, but she said that I can search for an agent if I really want to!!!! she said that I can get on ein Seattle and do jobs in Seattle if I really want to. I just have to get an agent to come out an see my work. EEEEE!!! I am so happy! I know it'll be hard work, but I WANT it! I will GET it!!! tra la la <--- Example of my happiness Current Mood: ecstaticCurrent Music: Something Corporate |
| Saturday, July 27th, 2002 | |
| 11:53 pm | oh yeah Ooh, yah. Lauren's party was really fun! (Even with the guy. pssh.)But yah, I got her a lego Ewan McGregor. yah. Good stuff. Sang Kareoke, it was umm...interesting. I took a lot of pictures of random crap. But, ARTISTIC random crap! Ok, time to go read (Chuck Palahniuk's 'Choke'. Good. Foul, but good.) and go to bed. Current Mood:  determinedCurrent Music: e.w.i |
| 11:49 pm | bah He went out. With a girl. I don't care. Do I feel any different? Pssh, no. Do I still want him? Sadly, yes. Do I care that he went out with a girl? *sigh* NO! Current Mood: determinedCurrent Music: Map Of June |
| Friday, July 26th, 2002 | |
| 10:23 pm | saweet Ok... August 23rd, the hOle, Brodie and EWI. Must go. Some one, go with me. Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: e.w.i |
| Tuesday, July 23rd, 2002 | |
| 10:23 pm | WOOOOOO- HOOOOOOO hmm, This weekend was... GREAT!!! I'm stoill coming off of the high of it. Not that I actually got HiGH... just mentally. It was great. Friday, I went to Kayla's party and I saw a bunch of buddies and I saw Matt and emily and Stella. And then on Saturday, I chilled at home, and then I went to Bonnie's party. at first, it was a bit awkward because it was just 5 girls and Dan. But then a few other people came. (1 girl, 3 guys) and then it got better. Especially when we all went in the Hot tub. I didn't go in at first, but then I thought, eh, screw it and I went in. I sat next to Greg... and well, let's just say he's very touchy feely. At first, I onl;y felt his leg, and then he had this pause, and then his hand was on my thigh under the water and he was going on about how smooth my legs were! It was a little strange, but fun. Then he had me feel his leg... dang that's a lot of hair. Then he showed everyone his toes. He has hair on his toes!!! gross. then, we all chilled inside and watched Orange County, but Greg went outside and layed down in the truck. I can't tell why he went outside because I was asked not to. So, anyway, then we poured water onm him while he was in there. then everyone was out on the deck and in the hot tub. WE were all coming up with our porn names. (Your middle name + your street name) Mine is Kathleen Red Spruce, Christin's is: Michelle Red Spruce, Breezy's is: Breanne Nina, Greg's is: Michael Delta, Bonnie's is: Jean King. Yah, that was fun. I don't see why she didn't flirt with him, usually she puts on the charm like that if she wants them. I don't get it. I ended up flirting with him more than she did! that's sad. Sunday, I chilled at home again. I went for a drive down by the water, got one of my arms burnt to a crisp. then I went to the hOle for the first time. It was great. Some of the acts sucked... but, they can't all be gems. * EWI- I thought they were GREAT. that's a lot coming from me. * Pink Sock- sucked * Capacity 3- they weren't bad. but their guy needs to keep his shirt on. * Veron Porter- wow, that kid like to shout a lot. * Map Of June- I thought they were great too. but, I think I would hold EWI one notch higher. Ok, then, on Monday I was feeling stupid, so I decided to figure out how to e-mail EWI and tell them how great they were. So, I found out their e-mail address by visiting their (not yet) website. So, I e-mailed them. then, today, while I was listening to one of their songs on my computer, I go to my e-mailbox... and hey! They replied! It sounds stupid, but it's cool. then I wrote back asking simple questions... y'know like... WHO they are, how old they are, who plays what. (Their hot bassist's name is Bryce and he's 18) And I asked if they have a miling list or anything, so I'm on the mailing list now. And the drummer who is the main e-mail guy I guess (Brandin) gave me his IM in case I had any othe questions. I know I sound stupid and childish... but it's just really cool to me because I've never had anything like this. I know a lot of people that go to the hOle do have firendships and correspond with some of the bands... but this was my first time. They were my favorite band there, and they e-mailed me. I just find that to be REALLY cool. I passed my driving class final drive today. tomorro is the final written test... pray for me. All right, I have to go unplug this keyboard now since it's not mine. Mine broke so this onw is on lend from my mom's office. I have to buy a new one tomorrow... office depot, here I come!!!! If you rea all of this... well, dang. you're good. And if you DID read all of this, please comment. I haven't had a comment in forever. Probably because I haven't written in forever. Current Mood:  giddyCurrent Music: A lot of MP3s: MOJ, EWI, Rufio, Finch, & Something Corporate |
| Wednesday, June 5th, 2002 | |
| 9:57 pm | sad I don't want all the seniors to go. Seniors I will miss: *Brent Griffith *Tom King *James Brooks *Kristin Lidstrom *Amanda Bryant There's more, but I'm too tired to thin kright now, I have to go get ready for bed. *sniff* PS: Mrs. Fenner est une chienne! She made me fill out one of her god-forsaken passes while I was in class hacking up a lung (got a cold). I go up to ask her if I can get a drink of water... I HAD TO FILL OUT A PASS! the water fountain is 50 ft down the hall, what am I going to do?!grrrr! Current Mood: distressedCurrent Music: Burnt CD |
| Thursday, May 30th, 2002 | |
| 9:18 pm | FNYARGH!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAHH!!!!!! I hate waiting!!!!!!!!! I had callbacks today... the list for Acting Ensemble is going to be posted tomorrow morning. I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: irritatedCurrent Music: Jimmy Eat World |
| Tuesday, May 28th, 2002 | |
| 6:24 pm | First day... well, today was the first day of Acting Ensemble auditoins! Today, we did our prepared pieces. That's the pantomime and the monologue. My monologue was about a wife that souded like she was being abused, but in the end, it turns out that SHE is the abusive one. It was ok... but my pantomime was great. The pantmime had to portray an even that is important in you life. I chose to do me being born because, really, if I weren't born, than I wouldn't be here. It seemed to me that everyone liked it quite a bit. I hope. I was really impressed with a bunch of other people's works. Kelsey's was REALLY good, she poured a lot of emotion into it. (Serious Kelslice... I REALLY did almost cry.) I liked Matt Laur's monologue, then ending was abrupt. (I also liked the fact that we finally found out the REAL way to pronounce his name!) Jeff's monologue was pretty good and he did a movement piece rather than a pantomime. Really, I was sort of worried when he did his movement piece... I don't know if that's how he feels, or how he used to feel, or if he was jsut making up a scenario. I dunno, but it had me a little worried. I really hope he doesn't feel like that. : \ Also... all I can say is Loughney. His monologue was AMAZING! SO WAS HIS MOVEMENT! If he doesn't make it.. then Mrs. Emans is seriously disturbed. "...and let me tell you, if you look as good as this camera...there will be sex tonight!" Current Mood: giddyCurrent Music: Jamiroquai |